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 BLEEEEAGH! I'm starting to create again, which is the most spectaculacudacular news I've had...wait...uh...experienced in a while. lol. I even want to start vlogging. Good lawdy, I'm so buzzed. I was going to talk about how it all happened, but it just makes me look bad. I have made up for it in some fun drawings though and am really pushing myself with watercolors. So things are in an upswing, now if only I could figure out a way to fund school... *sigh*

 I'm working on my animation, it's kind of a "back to the drawing board" situation right now. Must figure out backgrounds, guuuuhhhhh.

Hey,

I haven't written anything REAL in a while so now that I have a few moments, I thought I would. 

I finished up my Incomplete work for school as best as I could. I didn't get everything done, but I got one class done and I actually enjoy drawing, sculpting and animating again. Hurrah! It doesn't hurt emotionally anymore. But I know I will fall into those feelings every once in a while. However, I now know that I can overcome and that these things ebb and flow. This isn't to say that I won't freak out in the future, but I got through probably the worst bout of trouble I've ever had. On that note, I spoke with a psychiatrist and he said that he would call what I've been going through "major depression", so thankfully I know that I wasn't just making all of this up in my head, I was REALLY going through it. Suffering big time. He said he picked out a medication I could take while I continue psycho therapy but because of my reservations and the upswing in mood that we'd wait it out, which I really appreciated. So I see him again in 3 weeks and my normal school counsellor should be back soon. We'll see where I stand then. About finishing the work, I feel bad that I didn't get it all done. I even feel bad about how hard I tried, which is dumb because I should feel good about it, but...I just feel like a failure. However, that has come and gone, what has happened has happened and I must move on.

Projects for the now: Make a video about tea for a $15,000 scholarship and post to youtube by Aug. 2nd. Hopefully that will turn out well, if I got that money I'd be square. Oh, I also need to call loan companies and work on my character design/storyboard/animatic for my senior film and really nail down just what sort of animation I want to do for it. 

So, we'll see what happens. I'll keep posting. Weeeeeee!

 So now brickfish is following ME on twitter, man I'd love to parlay myself into a job as a think tank asshole. That'd be neat. lol

Oh, and for those who need the actual link: www.brickfish.com/Pages/PhotosAlbums/PhotoView.aspx